a long hard weekend

well, writing this a few hours late....nothing much is really going on in my life right now....just like a living corpse...went to taiping for the chinese new year and to sum it all up almost everything was fine and nice....except the weather....it was so hot maybe even reaching the upper thirties(in celcius)....

saturday, feb 12
went for practice in a peculiar mood...was in a very blur and casual state...but i knew what i had to do...because of a person's incapabilities,i had to take the acoustic guitar and also the bass(i really didn't know which one he was goin to play on) and tune it using the church's guitar tuner..
i, for one can't really stand being opressed on something which i have a certain amount of confidence in....particularly in music....humility is the way to becoming a better musician...but what if someone who was once your mentor but since then u have improved by a certain point in solidity and knowledge and have surpassed ur mentor by far?....i used the word by far not as a means to boast but playing 3 out of 5 chords WRONG in the whole duration of the practice....isn't that a bit way too much?he can't even tune the guitar properly and has an exuberant amount of arrogance(not being judgemental....it was pure observation) trying to lead worship leaders song by song.....this itself put me in a very distasteful mood which i knew i shouldn't continue on thinking like this if not i'll forget the importance of leading people into the atmosphere of being closer to God...but in the end i had to let it out somehow....and it landed on my dad because he's the acting music director currently(i didn't know he was in a not-so-fit healthy state so i regretted my own actions in my heart)....what a heartache saturday....

sunday, feb 13
i tried to put myself more in a worshipful manner because i know there would b lots of disturbances, technically, in music today(either the tuning would be out or he would just simply play the wrong chords, very shaky timing and lots more)....most of the time, i can take it if people who are not very skillfully equipped to play music but have that presence of humility in them and are willing to learn...but what if the person doesn't know his own faults and still leads....isn't it the blind leading the blind?....but i believe i can see(not 20-20 but at least have a certain visibility rate)...how strange is it when the blind leads the person who basically can see?...after service there was a meeting called by my dad to all musicians and worship leaders....i won't talk much but it was certainly a very heated discussion.....tension in the air...i don't really know how much i can take of this type of unnecesarry pressure.....but since i'm in this worship team, i won't give up on trying to correct the obvious technical faults....hopefully with the help of other musicians*i really mean this!*...sigh....what a day!

monday, feb 14
highlights of this day:
morning, 11.30am
met michael in the morning in woh fatt- wished him a happy birthday(haha...i still owe him
rm10)

afternoon, 1.30pm
met dr loh and philip
in woh fatt - wanted to buy me a classical guitar... haha...but i rejected the offer..
coz he liked the way guitarists play the spanish styles(such as flamenco)
on the classical....so i said since u like it,u learn it up la(i don't mind
learning it but my intention was to put me out of the question and
conversation)
5pm
went home and slept for around 3 hours
9.15pm
dinner with my sisters aletheia and eunice
11.40pm
watched "constantine" with ale and eunice. i won't say that it's a nice movie to watch...
it's a good THRILLER movie though....however the storyline was somewhat a bit unclear...anyways goin off to sleep now(4am, 15th feb)